For the first time in my life, I think I'm actually depressed. I'm tired of Boston and yes the plethora of white stuff on the ground definitely has something to do with it. I want\need to be home because when I am there I feel like a stranger or guest in my own house. I miss my friends, my routines, my toilet, my truck, my lawn, my bed. I miss how when you turn the heat on in my house, it actually gets warmer. But most of all, I miss my fiancee, with all her craziness. I miss her cold feet waking me up in the middle of the night. I miss listening her talk to the damn cats. I miss hanging out upstairs in the office while she hangs out downstairs, both of us happy spending time together if though we aren't in the same room. I need to go home.

But I like the money I'm making here.

I cannot recall being so out of it for such an extended period of time....okay I'm playing drama king right now...my bad....but I am damn sleepy.....I forgot how much I loved black comedians until I watched comic view last night on BET, they were funny as hizzell....

Have you ever noticed all the abbreviations on messageboards: LOL, ROFLMAO, etc....do you think people really are sitting at their computer, reading a message and as they respond to the message they break into fits of laughter that result in them Rolling On Floor Laughing My Ass Off? I can't recall the last time I ever rolled on the floor and I have not lost my ass in any recent laughing attacks. Where do sayings and abbreviations like these come from and why do we not question their validity. Pondering time, yes it is pondering time...

Headed to the city!!

Oh and another rhetorical that rubs against the grain for me is 'How adjective of your choice is that?!?' I don't it's kind of adjective but I don't know if it's the adjectiveest that I've ever heard......

Okay, am I the only person in the world who hates the saying 'Can you say.....'. It's most often used when two guys are talking trash about some sports team or another. For example, "Can you say 5 touchdowns against your team?!?" How idiotic that is. It has to be the absolute stupidest rhetorical question in the world. Uh no I can't say that but I learned three other statements just the other day that I would love to demonstrate for you. I mean , it was kind of funny the first time someone said it but by the third time you hear it in the same conversation it definitely loses its comedic thunder.....

Uh oh, I've got a new blog so I may not be able to provide all my best wittiness to Xpinionated but I have enough to go around. For example, uh, hmm. Oh yeah, this is not good, I had nothing to say and it is because I put all my good thinking into my other blog......problem, ridiculously huge problem!!! I'm so scared.....

Excuse me, can I have the vegetarian steak fries, please?

I can't stand spoken word. It is so over dramatic and so often done in the same way....people are sheep!

MH sounds like R. Kelly's less talented cousin....

Marques Houstion: MH. Album is okay, some nice beats, relatively uninspiring vocals but not bad vocals. Just not outstanding. That girl remix is a fun song, de-emphasizes his lack of strong vocals but he's never had strong vocals just a voice that doesn't annoy....

Yep, I have one loyal reader not including myself but she never leaves comments so I don't even know if she is reading....ah the life of a solo author....Maybe I should form a group of solo bloggers as a support group. The we need love too blog!!! Yeah, and we could invite more popular bloggers in as weekly guest bloggers.....

DWELE - Subject. The album is definitely nice. It's not today's traditional r&b, rather I would classify it as neo soul like Bilal. Definitely a laid back album as there aren't any songs that you would listen to on your way to a party but definitely cook the date dinner and let the music ride in the background type groove....

Bought a new phone but I can't seem to download ringtones. OR get online for that matter and I'm paying for the ability to get online so I'm slowly yet surely getting pissed. If I have to call them again there will be some strong kicks to their Cingular nuts.

Showdown: R.Kelly: Storytellin with Ronald Isley....hot....long but still hot....

CBS.SportsLine.com - Consumer group wants NCAA to nix beer ads

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This is a crock of shit. They claim university officials lose credibility for showing beer commercials during football games?!?! No they don't. Underage drinking on campuses is a problem. University officials lose credibility when they allow alcohol induced tailgating to go on on campus grounds. But beer commercials don't incite young people to drink. They drink because they've heard that it gets you drunk and has the potential to make everything that much more fun.

And then they throw out the stats that the 2003 Final four had more ads combined than did the other major sports. Well yeah, it's a tournament that is virtually impossible to catch all the games in a household where there is only one tv. So people go to bars. When you're at bars there is beer. Why not throw on a commercial to maybe push a multi-beer drinker who's on the fence into drinking your beer.

The Center for Science for Public Interest has entirely too much freaking time on their hands. They claim 'Coaching legends back....' their campaign. How much did they pay these legends? This is utterly stupid.....I wish there were some way I could boycott the CSPI but I've never heard of them before so I wouldn't know where to start!!

Had an interesting conversation yesterday with Kayla at the Avenue. Me and Tommy Gun were talking about why he didn't like Kobe Bryant. Basically, he thought Kobe was arrogant. So I asked him what the difference was between arrogance and confidence? He walked away, not because of my question but because he's a bartender and he's at work so he had to work. So I asked Kayla, who is a waitress but wasn't particularly busy at the time. She said she needed to think about it but while she was gone I thought about how often age plays a factor in the fine line between arrogance and confidence. Then I said, and I may have to get this copyrighted or something, "When you're an older person and arrogant, it is considered confidence. When you're a younger person and confident, it is arrogance."

I'm not cocky, I'm not conceited. I'm convinced. There's a difference. Being cocky means you act like you're the shit. Being conceited means you think you're the shit and treat people like shit as a result. Being convinced means you know you are what you are and you're happy with it. A lot of times being convinced comes off as cockiness or conceit, but don't let it fool ya!!

Beyonce -> Speechless: She lets loose on this slow jam and gets away from the whole pop scene a little bit, not much, but a little and it's a hella strong vocal performance.

Yep, definitely have out stayed my welcome in Boston. I'm tired of being here. Slowly but surely, everything is getting on my nerves. I think having L-Boogie come this weekend opened my eyes to how much I would rather be in Atlanta than here. Don't get me wrong, nice place, nice people, definitely a place to revisit at some point, but my summer work/vacation is starting to turn a little sour for me.

This is hilarious.

Obie Trice -> The Set UP: I knew Eminem's crew would represent and this is the joint that starts it off.

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Obie Trice ft Eminem -> I'll Shit on You: Classic.....nuf said.

What happened to the days where you could see an internet link, click on it, and read whatever you wanted to read. Now you have to sign up for newspaper articles....flipping ridiculous....the internet is going to turn to shit if the corporate world continues to dig their slimy ass paws into it!!!

Ok, I beat Patrick in Mike Tyson's Heavyweight Boxing 32 to 1....winning the last 31 fights....embarassing for the newbie.....

Okay, there are three words that need to be erased from conversational vocabulary. 'So', 'like', and 'totally' should be banned for at least three years so that college kids everywhere can learn to be individuals again. If I hear one more sentence that starts with 'I was so totally like so like oh my god!' What exactly is being 'oh my god'? As a matter of fact, 'oh my god' should be banned for at least 6 months. COLLEGE KIDS, so like totally do not a sentence make.....

Okay, just realized that Marques Houston is that little cat from Immature/IMX and Sister, Sister. I found that kind of funny. I was thinking there was this new face in R and B and it was just a face that had finally gotten past puberty. Do ya damn thing baby boy.....

Beyonce feat Lloyd Banks -> Baby Boy rmx: OH this is a hot remix! Hot remix...slowed down to a classic dancehall riddim, Beyonce using some 'bout to have sex' voice, ridiculously nice